I could hear them speaking outside my room.
“Are you the new doctor?”
“Yes. Tell me of the patient.”
“Of course, sir. As it says in his file, we received him about two months ago. His family has been unable to provide any illuminating information. He has not spoken a single word since he’s arrived.”
“I have read the file. I was perhaps hoping for something a mite more personal.”
“I’m afraid there isn’t much to say. He’s never spoken a single word, his eyes never focus on anything, he won’t eat himself but accepts food when it is fed to him. There are times when he starts screaming and trying to hurt himself, and he won’t stop until he’s sedated. We’re used to dealing with those who are… unwell, but this patient just strikes me as particularly eerie, although I couldn’t say why. I’m sorry I couldn’t be much help.”
“May I see the patient? Is he violent?”
“Oh, no, sir. As far as I can tell, he’s never harmed a fly. Always good to be careful, though.”
“Of course, no harm in being careful, is there?”
“Let me get the door for you.”
The bolt scraped open and the door swung inward. A man swam up into my peripheral vision. He crouched near when I sat up in the corner of my room with my legs stretched out before me.
“Hello Robert, I’m Doctor Madison.” He paused for a moment, his unfocused form shifting something from underneath one arm to the other. “I understand that you recently took a trip to Crest City.”
I trill of fear travelled down my spine like electricity and a whimper escaped from between my lips. I closed my eyes for a long moment.
Endless plains under clear blue skies, I told myself. I clung to the image inside my head. That’s all there was and all there ever would be. Endless plains under clear blue skies. When I opened my eyes again, I was calm.
“Yes, I can see it in your eyes,” he said, leaning closer.
Endless plains under clear blue skies.
“Oh, yes. I couldn’t quite believe when I’d heard, but now… how can I deny it.” His voice had become a reverent whisper. He reached out slowly to touch my face, almost as if he was fearful that I would shatter if he was not gentle. The moment his fingers brushed me, I slid myself to the opposite corner of the room, my back never leaving the padded wall.
Endless plains under clear blue skies.
He moved next to me again. “We are not allowed in the presence of our Lord. Only the priests are allowed to bask in His eternal glory, and even they are not allowed to see Him.”
Endless plains under clear blue skies.
“You looked upon our Lord, did you not?”
Endless plains under clear blue skies.
“Tell me, please. I beg of you.” He reached out and took my face in both of his hands. I flinched and tried to pull away, but his grip just tightened. “What did He look like?”
Endless plains under clear blue skies. Endless plains under clear blue skies. Endless plains under clear blue skies. Endless plains under clear blue skies. Endless plains under clear blue skies.
I clung to my illusion, chanting those words again and again. But it was far too late. His words and seeped through the cracks, opening me up to that terrible malignant alien presence. It oozed through the cracks of my delusions like sludge. Suddenly it was there before me in my sanctuary. The skies had darkened to the pale grey of dead flesh and the grass had all withered and died. Countless, multifaceted eyes bubbled up to the surface of its skin, some of them bursting like pustules only for another eye to rise pimple-like from beneath the surface. These eyes, all of them, looked into my being, stripping it bare and exposing it. Soon those eyes were all there were. It was hundreds of miles from me, yet I knew that it was truly looking at me, regarding me with its terrible alien intelligence.
And it occurred to me that I was shrieking and flailing and kicking. Men piled into the room to pin me down. Then came the needle and sweet, dreamless sleep.
* * *
Endless plains under clear blue skies, I soothed to myself. Again and again. It was all I needed, that precious little word inside my head. It was the only thing I needed to think about. Everything else was so pointless. There was a slight breeze that carried the pleasant scent of spring to me.
Outside my room there were whispers, but they didn’t matter. Somewhere far, far away a door opened. Something grabbed me beneath my shoulders and hauled me up, dragging me from the room. Soon there was a breeze rustling through my hair. Hands ushered me into a small dark space, and I heard the engine of an automobile roar to life. For quite a while, I was there in the dark with the roar of the car’s engine and the rattle of the road all around me.
Eventually, the sounds stopped and once again light entered the world. Men came and pulled me up out of the car. They freed me from my straitjacket and left it lying in the dirt beside the vehicle. I could smell the sea. I squinted in the light. Something was wrong. When my eyes adjusted to the light I realized that my surroundings looked familiar. The men were ushering me towards a large, squat building on the other side of a poorly maintained road. It suddenly occurred to me that the last time I’d been here, it had been dark. I began screaming and struggling, managing to twist free momentarily. They knocked me down and grabbed me by my legs almost without slowing down. I grabbed and the street below me, pulling up loose pieces of concrete but never finding and purchase.
They had to pry my fingers away from the door frame as the dragged me inside, repeating for each door we passed through. Before a large, steel door, the men who’d been pulling me along passed me off to four other men dressed in black robes. They had no eyes. The men with no eyes dragged me through the steel door. Behind it were smooth concrete and a spiral staircase. As we went further down, my screams and struggling gave way to resigned whimpers. Down, down we went. The air grew damp. We reached another steel door, twin to the first. Two men pushed it open while the other two shoved me through.
I had expected my feet to meet concrete, but they came down on empty air. When I hit the bottom, I heard my limb snap beneath my weight. My scream of pain rang out, echoing for what seemed forever. I sat in the dark, waiting for my eyes to adjust, and when they did I could see thousands of multifaceted eyes staring at me.
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